|As you can see from the kiddo's cheeks, it was really hot and they were total troopers.|
Saturday, July 7, 2012
at 5:05 PM
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Life has certainly shown me the ups and downs lately along with the bumps and bruises. I'm really struggling with most of the aspects of a day. Sleep has not been coming to me very easy and that's probably because of the stress. Kids
have had been bonkers and come to find out it's all because of Red Dye #40 and Blue #1. Who knew? Work has been a huge learning curve straight up (and even bending backward sometimes) which has caused me to second guess if I can really do this or not when I'm 100% on my own. I've even asked the person who selected me for this job that someday down the road to tell me why I was REALLY chosen. Trying to help Hubby figure out what path he should be on is an ongoing battle struggle. Our marriage seems to be suffering a bit (maybe because of all of the above). I'm struggling with my faith battle again, and I really dislike hate it (the battle).
So where do I come out on the other side of the rocky road? Well, bumped and bruised... and still without many answers. However, the journey has led me back to the basics. My family, my faith, and my inner strength. A while back (early 2011) my dad (who didn't grow up with a strong faith base, but a strong family base) mentioned that he and mom had seen a preacher on TV and then proceeded to email me the information. The Rev. Charles F. Stanely gave a sermon titled "The Valley Experiences in Our Life" and focused on Psalm 23: 1-6. There's a YouTube of his full sermon, but the main points to take away were:
- Everyone goes through valley experiences in life.
- Valley experiences are inevitable.
- God controls the depth and the length of a valley experience.
- Sometimes people respond negatively in a valley.
- We learn more in a valley experience than we do on the mountain top.
- There is a correct way to respond to valleys.
Not sure which is better, the climb, the slide or the walk in the valley... Life certainly has it's ups and downs.
at 5:09 PM
Sunday, March 4, 2012
A while ago, I ran across (through a series of things I was clicking on) this page where I found a blog post titled From Tunnel Vision To Your Ultimate Vision. Brought to me a bit of perspective after the rather long path I've been on since finding out I was prego with #3 in 2010.
The opening paragraph is really what did it.
Having a vision is a powerful tool. It means that you are honoring your goals, aspiring toward them, and taking risks to expand your horizons. Sometimes our visions for ourselves subtly turn into tunnel vision. We can’t see anything that contradicts our intentions and desires. We get selective perception, which limits our ability to remain open and to see things clearly. Instead of being present to our reality while we pursue our heart’s desire, we put the blinders on and barrel ahead toward our hopes and dreams.Much like the industry I work in, a vision is helpful in order to chart the path forward. "What do you want to be when you grow up?" is even talked about in multiple training sessions I've attended and even presented myself. The vision if not defined clearly can skew not only you, but your image, you thoughts, you life, your staff...
As a mom of 3 kids 5 and under, who works full time and married to someone who also works full time our vision for the family is sometimes hard to focus on and maintain. In the end, our main vision is to raise our kids to be happy and responsible people in this world. Seems simple, but a daunting task at times.
What's your vision? Personally? Professionally? For your Family?
Saturday, January 28, 2012
When the kids went down for their naps (minus Izzy who had just woken up from hers) I was suddenly in the mood for something sweet. It was either a cookies or a muffin. The muffin won today. I've had this cookbook on my shelf for several years and have never made anything from it. What was I waiting for? Oh wait... we have food allergies and I have to alter everything in a traditional cookbook. But I did anyway. Gotta try something new. MUST.DO.IT!
I plopped Izzy into her highchair for her lunch (which she promptly inhaled) and then gave her her tools for baking:
Vegan Apple-Cranberry Muffins (makes 12 regular size)
2 cups all-purpose flour (I had bleached, but you can use whatever you have)
3/4 teaspoon baking powder
3/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 "eggs" - Ener-G (4Tbs warm water and 3tsp powder)
1 cup sugar
3/4 cup vegetable oil
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 medium tart apple, such as Granny Smith, peeled (or leave peel on if you want but I know my kids won't eat the peel) cored, and cut into 1/4" cubes
3/4 cup Craisins
1/4 cup hot water
- Preheat oven to 400 degrees and make sure oven rack is in the middle. You can either spray/butter your pan or use paper cups... I suggest you also spray the paper cups or they may stick once cooled.
- In a small bowl pour the hot water over the Craisins and set aside.
- Sift flour, baking powder, salt and cinnamon in a large bowl.
- In a separate bowl wisk up the "egg" til a bit foamy and the pour in the sugar and vanilla.
- Pour in middle of flour and gently mix til flour is almost completely gone. But before it is dump in the Craisins with now pink water and apple pieces. Stir still completely incorporated. (Your batter will seem a bit thick, don't fret.)
- Using an icecream scoop evenly distribute batter into each cup, filling almost to the top.
- Place the pan in the middle of the oven and bake 30-40 minutes, or until a small knife or toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean.
- Remove from oven and place on wire rack. Let the muffins sit for a few minutes until cool enough to touch. Cool completely (yeah right).
**Added this note after doing this recipe again **
When I repeated this process I realized I didn't have any cupcake liners. What a disaster. I sprayed the pan so they would pop out and they totally turned hard and burned. Was so bummed. Note - use liners! I also did another version with peaches instead of the cranberry/apple combo. Used 1.5 cup of canned peaches which I diced very fine and added a TBS of un-sweetend applesauce. YUM!!!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
The weather is finally resembling more of January than April, even though the tree out front of our townhouse is budding and some of the flowers around town are trying to poke their heads out of the dirt. All I have to say is go back to sleep little ones... it's not time yet. Last night it sleeted then iced over, but at least it wasn't as bad as last year's ice storm which pretty much closed down EVERYTHING. I felt bad that hubby had to work today, but then again glad that I didn't.
This week was a short week and I only worked 3 days. Yes, I said 3. Monday was MLK day (holiday of course) and well... the office is closed on Fridays. I felt very crunched to get everything that is MOUNDING on my plate done and it totally didn't happen at all. Now I feel really buried because there's even more there with a week that is packed already. How on earth do I keep up and my head above the water without losing my mind? I've tried to create a to-do list and then begin to feel really overwhelmed. Then I try to prioritize and that NEVER works because everything seems super important. Oh, and lets not forget the never ending stream of emails... <
I'm part of the 2012 class for this program and I'm kind of wondering if this is something I should be spending my
money time on. I've only attended the first course (there are 5 total) and it seems that between my coursework for the CNP and Bachelors Degree AND the other continuing education I've done on my own, this could turn out to be a waste of money time. I'm so frustrated by this whole continuing education life I'm not in. Figuring out if an MPA is really necessary, even though I know it is to be able to teach at the college level which I'd love to do. If it is what do I focus in? I've looked at multiple schools (other than Wright State University) and most of them focus on government and not nonprofit, which is really where my career is. I've even looked at an MBA, but really not sure there either because of my career and if it again is really necessary. What to do is the question on my plate that I will hopefully find an answer by the end of 2012!
In other things, we're still looking for that "right" person to take care of the kids for the 2-3 days during the week. I did a phone interview with someone who I thought would work, but now I'm not so sure. Back to the drawing board I guess. I wish daycare wasn't so expensive...
Last night Danny and I had 3 hours of a "date". The only thing that would have made it more perfect was if there was a fire in the fireplace, a glass of wine in my hand and a pizza (even though he did make a great late dinner of steak and pierogi for us). He had "homework" for work to do by testing some of the demos he downloaded on the XBox. He says that it helps him talk about the games better to the customers and help with recommendations. Kinda funny cause I started playing one of the games (um... can't remember the name of it of course) and it wasn't bad. I still like Skyrim better, but it wasn't bad. We noticed there we a lot of games out like Skyrim, but none had the graphics or the HUGE world like it.
Well, before the kids wake from their naps I need to get the dishes done and dinner started. I found a new recipe surfing and can't wait to try it out. Oh and before I go... last night was the FIRST night Kenzie went to bed without any kind of safety diaper and woke up dry!!! 100% potty trained! Whoooo hoooo!!